Below are the most recent 7 friends' journal entries.

Wednesday, January 6th, 2010
brandnewleaf	10:04a	I love shortcuts on macs. my favorite one: apple + shift + 4 = allows you to "cut" a pic out (ie. pdf file) as png but you can change it into a jpg. anyelse have their favorites? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 5th, 2010
brandnewleaf	5:45p	My mom buys me marc jacobs and lv bags but shops at TJmaxx and JCPenny. I have spent $900 this past month. WHAT?! Being frugal with money starts again today. and I'm NOT in the mood to gym it up, but I'm making small goals. This week: Just go 5 days - even if it's less than 30 minutes. I need to step foot in there. I may apply to the gym down the street from me since i have mwf's off and still don't have an internship. that way i can just make some extra cash while quitting 24. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 3rd, 2010
brandnewleaf	7:08p	I'm done with this constant stream of weight gain. Tomorrow is monday. Considering I just got back today...I'm counting it as my new year. When one parent says you're getting fat, whatever. But when the other one finally says, "Those are just leggings right? Man. your legs look like pig legs." I think it's time to hit the gym. I don't want to diet. That is just a horrible word. I just want to eat healthy and due to this past weekend and all the shit I ate, eating healthy does not sound bad at all. I want to join a hiking group. I think I may. I need to find an internship. I still have not redone my resume. I told myself tomorrow because I'm just so fucking drained. nye's was amazing. pics on fb of course. I'm too all over the place right now. I really need to organize. I've been too content with all this chaos and it's finally catching up. I think one major perk of having guy friends is getting a burst of tooting of the horn. It's been a long day and all I want to talk about is me. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 28th, 2009
brandnewleaf	8:20p	NYE's plans. Boulder, it's been too too long. (Comment on this)
brandnewleaf	3:26p	a lot of times I disappear because my feelings are hurt. but how can i expect people to care when I start losing my effort. (Comment on this)
brandnewleaf	12:20p	I have realized growing up in LA has made my "attracted to" standard very very high. I don't see a lot of pretty people when I go out. I will see a handful, but not many. When David, my Colorado friend, came out to Old Town with me because I wanted to show him around town, him and his friend were amazed at the nice cars and good looking people while i was like, "WAIT. YOU THINK SHE'SSSSSSSS PRETTY. wow. your standards are low." Bitch, I know. I wasn't high. This has always been the norm to me. Size 10 is the american average? Ha. Not in LA. I am currently talking to a 13 (almost 14 lol, he had to emphasize) year old boy that has a weird asian fetish that he should work hard in school. he's asking for pictures saying he "respects" my body. I'm sorry, this boy is 13 years old. I can't stop laughing right now. Like, he really is convinced he's getting a picture. what!? I have deleted my myspace because of him. It was about time. Even though I have some friends on myspace that don't have fb, they don't seem interested in keeping a relationship so it's about time to let go too. PUSSY = POWER. girls, remember that. WE ARE THE PRIZE. lol he is saying, "its not fair ur hiding that stunning art u call ur body from me u should share ur beauty" LOLZ what?! no. HOLYHOLY.waitiwaitwait. MY MOM JUST MENTIONED BERNARD IN A POSITIVE LIGHT. whhhhhat?! at lunch, I was talking about how I need to mail out Matt's gift today because it's already late and his is arriving today. She says, "You better wait to receive it. Why are people so cheap today? So stingy. Bernard was never like that to you. He didn't have any money but he gave you everything you wanted." Yes, I know mother. "He really didn't have money but he just wanted to pamper you." She does not see Matt in a good light because I told her about how he asked me to pay for half the meal on our 3rd date and lunch whennnn I went out to Boston to see him. lol, whhhhhat? I know. I know. And I will continue bringing it up because he lol just doesn't get it still. Like it's normal to ask that. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 27th, 2009
brandnewleaf	1:16p	probably long post. I love my guy friends because they understand me so well and it's only males that can put up with my cocky, obnoxious comments. Girls become haters - I'll lump myself in that category. I can be a hater. I can talk about myself excessively and they join in with all positives. It's like a constant ego boost. I'm constantly special. It's like some sort of odd addiction. It's all self-centered, really. I have been avoiding male hangouts for a while now and it's been really refreshing hanging out with only girls. Gossiping. Talking about what's been in our lives. I find myself constantly asking groups of girls what they talk about when they hang out. because I still feel so new to it. I have had that before - I just have forgotten about it. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the girls: Yesterday I remembered my family. 2004 2009 will come when it's posted on facebook. gawd, i love facebook. Because of it, we had the biggest alumni turnout ever. From class of '96 to '08. Too cute. boys of course...for the girls, it was just that family with a couple of additions while some couldn't make it. I can't even begin to describe the emotions that came with seeing all of them again. My "intensity" that is too much to handle by some people...I can't control it when I'm with them. I get overwhelmed by all these positive emotions and it's like I burst inside. I scream and can't wipe that smile off my face. I don't crave being high when I'm with them. poor coach barr. I asked him last night what's the main difference between coaching girls and boys and he said, "girls have boyfriends." All the asian boys he coaches are just the cutest boys ever, and that's it. they're boys. They goof off and entertain each other. Girls are just so much more draining. my theory is: I'm just too draining. I take the cake on that one. So, with groups of girls, they get tired of me quickly because it's like I'm constantly having issues. lol now though, I'm just so boring and my issues are lame so I try to keep my mouth shut, until I get too comfortable which has been too quickly recently. Damn you Boulder and your nice people. You've softened me. OH. And i'm a huge judger...and don't really know how to sensitively talk about other people's issues. I blame my mother. Always so blunt that it hurts people's feelings. But I'm only blunt to people I care about because I care. I just don't know how to do it in a "girly" way. One step at a time, right? I'll get better. After the exhausting only 2 quarter game, we decided to shower and go to...lazydog? Shit, i'm too high right now to remember, but it's in Paseo, across the movie theatre. I do not go out often enough and I fucking grew up here. Pathetic. Anywhoo, we were there from 4pm - 7:30pm. Pretty amazing. I wish I took pictures but I was too overwhelmed that I forgot. Hopefully it can get bigger every year. (Comment on this)